Day 3

It still hurts .
How long izzit gonna take ...
It only stop hurting when i'm starving , eating & sleeping .
Everything i see reminds me of you .
This is driving me nuts .
Is this what u felt that time ?
The torture deep in you .
Then you must be happier without me i guess .


Mummy says , Shopping later .
Christmas clothes ?
Or New Year clothes ?
I have totally no idea .
Dinner at Little India with her good friends .
Hope i can put on that smile for the whole day .
I hope ...
I'm really missing your childish-ness .
Your crazy gun going Biang Biang Biang Biang Biang .
Spamming me on the phone everyday .
But i think i gonna learn to live without you .
I don't think you'll come back even though i wish you would .

Hate the feeling of loneliness ttm like all of the sudden .
Was left at home for 1hour +++ ,
And i was .. Scared .
Couldn't take this kind of feeling .
Called Jonathan and he pei me for 1 hour .
Thanks loads .
Although didn't really talk ,
But at least i knew someone was there .

& thanks for all those ppl out thr who showed care and concern .
Greatly appreciated .