Woke up this morning with a even worse cramp . My mood was terribly killed . Like instantly . Organised my files in my laptop so I could find my ppt slides better . Procrastinated on Facebook/Twitter till I died . Cousin's kids came over to use the laptop etc etc etc . Went to sleep because the stupid headache came back .
Okay , I'm gotta rant . So do not read on from this point if you wanna save your eyes tyvm ;
Mum woke up and started screaming . I'm like WTF . Just because my sister was holding on to the packet of crackers and it's almost finished , doesn't mean she ate EVERYTHING . She should freaking get her facts right before screaming , at ANYONE . Doesn't mean she's the MUM , she can just rant at everybody she wants . Did she freaking wake up from her nightmare ?! Even so , she had no rights to scream . HELLO WE'RE ALL HUMANS HERE AND WE HAVE HUMAN RIGHTS , NOT FORGETTING FEELINGS .
Didn't want to go to my grandmother's place because I had PW work not done , and PW paper's on Monday . Freakkkkk . I only realised today that my Church Camp Meeting clashed with my PW Meeting , so I had to rush out some work today before they go for their research tomorrow . And she asked , or rather SCREAMED : THEN WHAT WERE YOU DOING JUST NOW ?! SLEEPING RIGHT ! I was sleeping because my laptop was hogged by my niece/nephew . and followed by THEN WHAT WERE YOU DOING YESTERDAY ?! YOU COULD'VE DONE IT YESTERDAY RIGHT?! I only realised it today like I said , and I'm already stressed out enough . You didn't have to add on to my stress .
When she called grandma to inform her that I wasn't going over , and dad to ask if he wanted dinner . Her tone was all acting cute . And once she hung up the phone , she's all LET'S GO to my sister . Obviously shouting but she didn't know . This sucks like seriously . Every single time , we raise our voices , she scolds us for it . Even when it's unintentional . And when she screams , she doesn't realise it . I really hope she'll have some self awareness on how she's acting . Like really very serious .
If all these crap goes on , I'm gonna leave house . Serious . I really need a break from this world . All these shit . It's not like I'm not stressed enough . She don't have to add on to it . This place I'm living in now , is not a home . What defines a home ? Love , warmth , peace ? I can find NOTHING in this house . It's just a house , and not a home that I'm living in .
All I wanna do is to cry and escape from this warfield . I thank God for providing me with such a caring boyfriend , who's there with me almost 24/7 . Who gives me hugs whenever I need them . Chilling me down when I'm all flary and being all patient with me when I'm throwing my temper .