June have been crazily packed especially for the first 2 weeks . Had lessons , LTCamp , BMTChurchCamp . When I was finally free on the 3rd and 4th week , PW came in and all the emailing of people started . Super stressed out because of that . One organisation got 2 people replying me , really didn't know which to follow . But in the end got 2 interviews successfully done .
Then my stomach became a bitch at around 4th week of June , where I started to feel unwell and nauseous . Hacked care because this always happen to me due to my super super weak immune system . Then came MYEs (which sucked so much) . Every paper, except econs, I went in with an almost empty mind . Took Math Bio Econs but skipped Chem paper because my stomach was hurting like crazy on Wednesday . Went to see doctor , then realised that it was gastric flu . Took medicine but didn't recovered . Had to skip a few days of school on and off because of the pain .
Went to Serene's house on Youth Day to do a little something for the Phobos . The video lika retarded only hahahahahas . The editing was quite a bit of craziness . But it was all worth it .
Skipped school again on Thursday to see another doctor . Turns out that the sharp pains were due to the contracting of my intestines . Wtf ikr . So retarded . Got MC for school . (& freaking Mrs Loh thinks that I'm faking all this again =.=)
Last night was shit . Family conflict again . WTF !!! Mood now completely ruined . My stomach is hurting from all the crying . So freaking hungry but have no appetite for food . My mum don't seem to give a shit about anything . This sucks to the max , especially when she's the cause of this thing . (Even my sister agrees , so it's not just me) Sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks . Boyf called me early in the morning , just to tell me that he's stressed . Wtf I think I'm more stressed can !! Don't need to add on . Urghh , can't take life like this anymore . WHY ?!??!!!??!??!?!?!???!?!?!?!?!
A big thanks to everyone out there who showed concern a little here or there . Really appreciated those encouraging words . Love you guys to the max . Without you I think I'd be dead already . The pain is really killing me . Mentally , Physically , Emotionally .
List of things left to do :
1) Buck up on studies before promos come in 70/80+ more days
2) Finish up EOM before the actual deadline comes in and more sleepless nights
3) Do up portfolio for our dear 8th Phobos Captain
4) EAT , and get my appetite back
5) Screw myself and die
Ktnxbai .
P.S. Cravis if you see this , don't forget my meatballs .