See this broken cup ):

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

Thank her ! Grawl .....

Aniwaes ,
Angela came over today .
Talked and talked .
Dinner-ed at T1 with her Rick .
He treat ^^
Hahahahahahas .

I WAN TO WAKE BOTAK UP FOR REVENGE !

imy like mad . I bet you don't know .

Day 13 .
That's the first thing that came to my mind when i woke up .

25th Dec .
Christmas .
Vera's house for gathering .
Too lazy to elaborate .

26th Dec .
Out with Ivy to converse warehouse sale .
But Tampines1 before that .
Bought that floppy ear stitch .
Then went over to his place .
Pass it to him .
Blah blah *Only 3 ppl shall know what happened that day*
Could only say ,
I couldn't control my tears .

27th Dec .
Horn Section outing .
1/3 section thr only .
Rahhs !
Thad , Justin , Wifee , Val & Me .
Daidi @ KFC ,
Then caught Alvin & the Chipmunks 2 @ Cathay .
Thanks Thad for the popcorn treat ^^

28th Dec .
Comm meeting aft that for Recruitment Day in school .
Hope everything turns out well .
Leaving home @ 12 .
Rahhhs .

& thanks botak for phone-ing with me for 1hour +++++ .

DEDICATED TO BOTAK !

Day 9
Sorry but i can't help not counting

I've been a lazy girl ,
Not updating this thing .

20th Dec .
Primo Momento .
Thai band is , Jaw dropper .
Photo taking with Mr Wong aft concert .
All on facebook .
Dinner @ HollandV .
Long bus ride home with Nicholas , Clara & Ivy .
Had h2h talk with Boyf .
Felt much better aft that .
Thanks girl .
Cheer up too kay ! :D

21st Dec .
Emo session with Rhineeee .
Lunched at Ikea's emergency exit stairs .
Rushed home aft that coz daddy called & say Anna's coming back Sg .
Followed Daddy to his Christmas Dinner @ Hortpark .
Dhn met up with Abby & Anna & family for dinner .
Camwhore-d until siao .
1 night , 100+ pictures .
Crazy night .
Whee ~

22nd Dec .
Woke up at 5 .
Super tired .
Trained with Jon to school .
Justin sent the Tubas over and left .
Played emo songs with Shiyin .
Comm + ARIC drilling aft that .
Was quite okay ,
Dhn full band drilling , combined with sec 1s .
Omg , i wanted to faint .
Like seriously .

Did housekeeping stuff for band coz the new conductor never come .
Talked to Kangrong aft band .
Then lunch-ed @ Macs .
Poor Jonathan got food poisoning due to the uncooked McSpicy .
21 aft that with sz and germaine .
Reached home and fell asleep .
Too tired alr .

23rd Dec .
Woke up at 9 .
Left house at 10 .
Reached GoodwoodParkHotel at 11plus .
Couldn't find my way there at first .
Spamming calls to Mummy .

Fetch-ed Anna for shopping ^^
Headed to Aljunied for Converse Warehouse Sales .
But stupidly alighted at the wrong bus stop .
& couldn't find our way to the place coz it was super ulu .
It wasn't as crowded as other warehouse sales too .
Bought a shoe and a bag , Total $39.80
I think offer's 70% .
Then headed to 313 to buy christmas present .
Helped Anna chose a sweater @ Uniqlo .
Btw, Uniqlo's having sales .
& went action city to buy the rest of the presents .
Went to OrchardCentral to walk awhile .
Saw this stitch .
But i was too broke ):
So didn't get it .

Went back to hotel to wrap the presents ,
& waited for her mama and papa to come back .
Then train-ed home and slept when i reached home @.@

24th Dec .
Today is Christmas Eve .
I'm looking forward to opening all my presents .
& i don't know what to do nao .
So buhbuaiix .

Day 5

Woke up , and wished the dream was real .
I wished every dream was real .
Seeing the house empty made me feel .. Scared .

I want to pick up the phone and call you ,
But i realised i shouldn't .
This feeling sucks .

Closed my eyes in the car yesterday ,
Didn't want to see the familiar route that i might not be taking anymore .
Saw my bus turning out from the junction ,
& recalled , how we chase after the bus last time .

Reached and asked for the toilet ,
Coz i couldn't take it anymore .
Tears just flowed out of my eyes .
But i stl had to smile .

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Church later ,
Still dunno going which .
Dhn Primo Momento .
Meeting up with Bandmates .

Aiyah , i have nth to blog about .
Bye .

Day 4 .

Too tired to online last night alr .
It was a torture to put up a smile ytd .
Was left alone and tears almost dropped out .
But i controlled and wiped away the tears in my eyes .
They kept mentioning meh meh raccoon .
Totally sian diao .
Walked pass this ring shop ,
And i recalled what u said to me .

I thought that going out / shopping would cure this broken heart ,
But i realised that it only worsen my mood .
Everything i saw was disgusting .
& everything reminds me of you .
I looked at the clock 11:11 ,
Yes i was thinking of you .
But to be exact , I'm missing you almost every single second .

I really want to ask you these questions ,
But i don't know if you'll answer .
Is like , you don't even give me a chance to .
You stopped going online on facebook , msn .
& when i go online on maple ,
You don't even say hi .

Am i still your friend ?
Why wouldn't you say hi ?

---------------------------------------------------------------------------

Out yesterday ,
First to Singpost .
Subway-ed and saw guides people .
Dhn went to This Fashion .
Bought a new white dress , $8 .
The only thing i saw that was nice .

Headed off to City Plaza .
Bought a cute rate shoes & tops .
Saw this pretty italian top ,
Nice material but it was $199/- so didn't buy it .

Bus-ed 7 to Dhobby Ghaut's This Fashion ,
Bought another long-sleeved top .
& my dear sister look good in hoodiie .

Train-ed after that .
Was walking down the escalator .
And SLIPPED .
I sprained my feet and toes .
But that was alr super lucky .
Or else it would be another bandange on my leg like the previous time ,
But just a bigger one .
(& plus no more you to sayang me D: )
Dhn went to Farrer Park ,
Meet mum's friend .
Headed for Indian dinner ,
Food was nice but i was too full ,
So ate a little .
Shopped at City Sqaure for awhile .
Dhn cakes at Coffee Bean coz they were having 50% opening sales .

Daddy joined us later ,
Dhn he fetched us home .
Mummy said , Porridge Buffet .
Somewhere near my school .
Daddy mentioned the place ,
& i was totally familiar .
Windsor sth sth .
That's the landmark i use to alight the bus ):
Is this on purpose ??
Might as well go your house downstairs the kopitiam ==''

But i really wanna see you around somewhere tonight .
Not hoping much coz i think you'll just coop yourself at home ,
Not wanting to come out .

Legs are aching ,
Paralysed once again .
& i couldn't get to sleep with a broken heart and a injured leg .
Argh , nuts .

& Botak , i dowanna lie to you ,
I'm the blue ball .
Sorry .

The rat shoe . It bites !

Day 3

It still hurts .
How long izzit gonna take ...
It only stop hurting when i'm starving , eating & sleeping .
Everything i see reminds me of you .
This is driving me nuts .
Is this what u felt that time ?
The torture deep in you .
Then you must be happier without me i guess .


Mummy says , Shopping later .
Christmas clothes ?
Or New Year clothes ?
I have totally no idea .
Dinner at Little India with her good friends .
Hope i can put on that smile for the whole day .
I hope ...
I'm really missing your childish-ness .
Your crazy gun going Biang Biang Biang Biang Biang .
Spamming me on the phone everyday .
But i think i gonna learn to live without you .
I don't think you'll come back even though i wish you would .

Hate the feeling of loneliness ttm like all of the sudden .
Was left at home for 1hour +++ ,
And i was .. Scared .
Couldn't take this kind of feeling .
Called Jonathan and he pei me for 1 hour .
Thanks loads .
Although didn't really talk ,
But at least i knew someone was there .

& thanks for all those ppl out thr who showed care and concern .
Greatly appreciated .

Today's schedule .

`Wake up
`Cry
`Facebook Blogger etc
`Cry
`Sleep
`Eat
`Feel sad
`Spammed tv until numb
`No more tv- Feel sad
`Computer

What's next ??

It's only the 2nd day .
I'm dying .
Trying to get rid of the pain in the heart ,
By feeling pain somewhere else .
This isn't what u call 自残 right ?
It's just merely helping myself remove the pain .

& everytime i see the phone ,
I feel like dailing your number .
But i think you wun be happy to hear my voice aye ?



I hate being alone at home .
This feeling sucks .
& the worse thing is that you're not there for me .
I wanna hear your voice ):

Time check 7.40pm .
Approximately 4 more hours before today end .
Time passes so slowly without you .
Argh ..

Day 2 without you ...

Woke up so many times in the night .

I closed my eyes ,
& dream of you .
My heart aches terribly .
But thr's nothing i can do .
Woke up in the morning ,
& i start thinking of you .
Our past memories ,
Those sweet things that you do .
Tears started flowing down my cheeks .
Hugged lemur and stared at bear bear ,
My heart felt like something just pierced through it .
It's painful , really painful .
But it's your choice i respect .
But if you ever want to turn back time ,
I would be more than willing to turn it back for you .

Talking to Kor on msn last night ,
& he told me to keep a diary .
But i realised as i talked to him ,
I don't even need one .
Everything we did ,
I could remember .
Ask me an occasion ,
I think i should be able to recall .

Each time i think back ,
My heart aches like mad .
Thus , i don't wish to recall those memories .
But i don't wanna lose them ):

I on my maple ,
Slacking in the fm .
Hoping to see you around .
I totally lost motivation to train ,
Should i just quit maple ???

I can't find the courage to talk to you ,
I don't dare to sms you ,
Being afraid that you'll just start screaming at me .
I cannot even find a chance to ask you ,
Are we still friends ?

Time check : 10am .
14 hours left before the next day .
How am i gonna spend this 14 hours without you ?? D:
But it's okay , i'll try .
Someone , help me think of things to occupy my mind ...

Status : Single & Unavailable .
Coz my heart is captured by someone alr .

GAME OVER D:
Althought this isn't what i wanted , I respect your decision .

401 days with you ,
10.11.08 .
Kept as my memory forever .


I'm in a teary situation .
Don't talk to me .
If u wanna know what happened ,
Ask and i may tell .
Don't go around and gossip like some bitch yea ?

Day 1 without you

I guess i shouldn't have held on since that day .
I'm sorry for being such an inconsiderate being .
Torturing you for another 3 weeks .
Your decision , I respected .
Wiping away the tears ,
Keeping away those memories we had in my heart ,
The 401 days together .

Mum said ,
"Get a better guy" ,
I said no .

I know days will be tough ahead without you .
But i'll try my best to walk forward .
I'll never forget you though .
I Love You .

Are we still friends?

Piano today @ 10am .
I'm super tired .
Entertained Marie for 45 minutes ,
& i'm dead .
Teacher got us christmas present .
Mine's a orange-bag .
Not gonna upload pictures of it ,
Coz i have no mood .

Imma sad girl .
Why everything must turn out this way ???
I cannot live without you .
Really ...
I don't understand why u say i'm treating this like a game ...
I hope everything turns out well tmr .
I wished everything was like last time ):
My heart is broken into pieces ,
Many many pieces .
Can u glue it back for me ?




& MY FREAKING TEMPERATURE IS RISING ! D:
STOP RISING U STUPID TEMPERATURE !
YOU DON'T HAVE TO RISE EVERYTIME I LOSE WATER FROM MY BODY !!!

Been sick these few days .
Ever since last Saturday .
Didn't felt well that night alr .
Next day had bad headache and stomachache .
And it continued on till today .
Argh .
Hate being sick .

Can't really rmb what happened in the past few days .
Just being sick .
Arghhh .

Friday ,
TJ concert .
Got super pissed off by an idiot who purposely hog the toilet ,
Knowing i'm in a rush .
Met up with Nich , Jeremy & Scotts @ TanahMerah .
Bus-ed to TJ .
Dhn waited in the canteen to pass Geoffery his tickets .
Concert was alright ,
Balance was super off though .
Millions of trombones @.@
Dinner @ BedokN Blk 85 ,
& Jonathan freaking dropped 10cents into my food !!
Reached home at 11.45pm after dinner .

Saturday ,
Maha Bodhi Concert .
Rushed like some mad cow .
& was lucky that i wasn't late (:
Saw many many NCO people ,
Geof say they came to support their mace instructor , Trombonist .
Went to meet Ziqin aft concert to talk .
Dhn home-d .
Cut hair & waited for sister to reborn finish her hair .
Dhn dinner-ed out (Daddy's finally home ^^ ) .
Home-d and sleep .

Sunday ,
Church-ed .
Sunday School ended super early .
(Unexpected as it was Keith's class!)
Slacked outside bay while waiting for family .
Buffet lunch-ed @ Marina Punggol's Sakura .
They have BBQ & Steamboat ^^
Nice place , but didn't have much appetite .
Spammed ice cream as that was the only thing i could eat .
Maple & Rot at night ... ...

& xinqqan finally downloaded her maple !
But delp ~.~
Sin's lv 49 alr , & i feel like quitting maple .
Maple is so damn boring ,
Zzz .
& i think i should start studying .
Nevermindd ,
Shall start some day ....

&& i bought a new school bag ^^
Monokuruboo ! But coloured (:
Happy Girl ^^

Before i start with anything ,
I've got some toys to give away .
Anyone wants them , tag me or just text me .

My Beloved Purple Dinosaur .

& This Purple Monkey .

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Comm meeting today .
Was kinda crapish
And took a almost full comm photo .
Clara's super cute lahhs .
Went up and down the escalator just to take the photo for us .

@Clara : I'm too lazy to put you in the picture now . Will do it either tmr or some other day (:

I'll try to put you in the picture , somehow .

I feel sick ,
But I'm not .
This is driving me nuts .
Must be the KFC i ate just now .
I forgot , no oily food .

Sick sick sick sick sick .
If only you would appear at my doorstep ,
& cook fish porridge for me ):

I wanna update my blog . But i have nothing to !

Except for my lost & found cat .

See that cat who got me worried for nothing .

She got lost on Tuesday , 2.30am .
& was found on Wednesday afternoon , ~12.25pm .
Omg omg omg ,
It was like magic .
Seriously .

Went down and search the whole neighbourhood for her .
With her food sumre .
& she was nowhr to be found .

Gave her food to the other cat ,
A fat orange one .
Dhn took it away for the other grey cat .
The grey cat smell smell dowan ,
& the orange fat cat wan to eat ,
so followed me around ==''

& how was mimi found ?
When i went home ,
Exhausted .
Was was swearing and cursing her .
"FAT" Mimi .
Dhn she suddenly appeared below my computer table ,
And her tail go tickle my leg .
Shocked tio lahs ,
& i dunno whether to smile or to cry .
Omg , imma happy girl .



Hardcore gaming .
Thanks to Izar event .
& thr's this quest that gives Peng Peng Ice Bar .
It turns u into a PENGUIN !
It's like super cute lahhs .




& playing facebook games .
(Add me , i need neighbours! )


Happy Pets



Restaurant City



Happy Aquarium
Country Story


-Happy Pets

-Happy Aquarium

YAY ^^V
I've finished my English assignment .
Like finally .
Dunno whether teacher will mark it coz it's overdued .
Dammit .

& i successfully uploaded pictures on facebook .

Having a terrible headache now ,
Coz i juz read the stupid book .
A sense of belonging .
Going to sleep now (although i'm super hungry) .


Thanks all who come ask me what happened ,
Coz you guys stalk blogs and read small fonts .
Aniwaes ,
Many thanks .
I'm much much better now .
Super thanks to Jie ,
Thanks for your encouragement .
Couldn't have lived without you (: